A testimony.

Over the past few months, I have sat down many times to write. There are a bunch of posts just lying in my drafts, bereft of the courage to share them.

Somewhere along the way, I allowed silence to settle over my heart. It has been a trying time, we are facing seas we have no idea how to navigate. Our compass feels haywire and no matter how we try to recalibrate it, we are out on open waters and have no idea which way ahead.

More than ever, I have learned that in our weakness, He is truly strong. When our knees feel weak and praying comes in streams of tears, He is strong. When it does not work out as you thought it would. When the promises feel unattainable. When there is no open door and no window to let in light. When it feels like everything crumbles. HE IS STRONG.

Today I am posting, not because I have found my strength but because I realised He is my strength. My friend, If you are reading this and you have sought courage but have yet to find it, I want to encourage you to turn to Jesus as your strength. The process is not easy and what you are going through is not in vain, though more than often I have cried Solomon's words to God in deep despair. Everything is not in vain.

The fire of the Lord comes at a cost. The laying down of ourselves and our own desires. Even the prayers that do not correlate with what He wants for us. Because what He wants for us is always more than we can hope for. Katherine Kuhlman mentioned once what it took for her to come to the end of herself. The price was great. How would we think the price is not steep?

If you have been crying out to God to step into a deeper place, to know Him more, to be delivered from all that has been keeping you back, to save you from the bad decisions of your past, to come to the end of yourself - then what you have been facing and going through has been part of the answer to that prayer. Do not give up, the breakthrough is coming.

I recently re-watched a testimony from Kris Vallaton speaking about going through a difficult time and how Bob Jones told him that "the eagles are moulting". I truly believe that is where we are.

Don't get caught up in the season of loss and miss the new thing that the Lord is bringing in this season. Great are the things yet to come.

I will be posting more in the coming times, by the grace of God.

This is my testimony: that in my weakness He is strong. He is the One who lifts my head and turns my face toward His loving gaze. He doesn't look away but His love rushes through my veins and gives me the courage to stand when all else fails. The depths of my pain are the perfect place to be met by the One who has taken it all upon Himself. His goodness never fails. He never leaves nor forsakes us.

So, if He can do it for me, He can do it for you.

Sending love, prayers and blessings.

Yolandi

If you need prayer please do not be afraid to reach out. We are never alone in Christ, we are His body.